Saturday, 25 December 2010

If I could tell you just one thing.

If I could tell you just one thing, without any doubt it would be that you never deserved me.
Not that year when we were together, and not now when you think all of your cheap words can make me desperate to be with you again.

I never thought stupidity could be a word that went against me, but i'll admit that I was stupid to ever believe the three words you said to me, May 2009, and even stupider to believe them now, when you tell me you're 'falling' for me all over again

If perhaps, suddenly, she's not perfect enough for you, and you're realising that just maybe you gave up on something better, then the answer is yes. You did give up on something better. But I guess that's just something you're going to have to accept.

You never, not once, made me feel special, or like I was the first thought when you woke up, and the last thing you though of because sleeping. But you know, one day, i'm going to meet a guy, and he's going to make me feel so special, and appreciate what you were quick to take for granted.

You made me feel second best then, but not now, not ever, will I be again, because i'm more than that. And if you haven't realised that now, then i'm sure you never will.

So, you can tell me that you're falling for me again. You can see me how pretty I look. You can even tell me that you think about nothing except for me, and that you regret giving up on us.

And if you're ever to read this blog, this is my reply . . .

I really don't care.
I don't buy it. Not a single word that comes out from your mouth. You manipulate women to feed your ego. And the funny thing is that you don't want me, you never did. You just want to know that I still want you. But the truth is, I got over you a l
ong, long time ago, and I realise now that I don't even need your approval when I change my hair, or wear a different lipstick because it was just a way of feeling as though, for once, I had the upperhand.

And above all, I don't need to hear your lies.

So I guess, i'm done.

- Epiphany;Angel Taylor.

Monday, 3 May 2010

When did romance turn to ignorance?

When did it become perfectly okay for someone to steal your heart for four months, to reassure you that you are worth being with, that you are 'perfect' even, and feeding you words of security that they won't hurt you, that they are different to any guy who has ever caused you heartache, and tears in the past, and to say the three small words that cause such a huge impact; i love you, and out of nowhere, they shatter it all into a battle of ignorance that they refuse to resolve. And you find yourself wondering, did I imagine it all? Did I imagine him actually loving me.? Because you must have, this was never in your radar. You never thought he'd be capeable of such cowardly actions. Not after all that he said, and promised. But how well can you know someone in four months? It's true, you can fall head over heels in the matter of weeks, days even. Every word they feed you, you drink. You enjoy it. And you give, and give and give. Then, out of nowhere, everything is over, and they're gone.
Quicker than they came.
No explanations.
No valid reasons.
And it's just another failed relationship, built on a broken promise.