Saturday, 25 December 2010

If I could tell you just one thing.

If I could tell you just one thing, without any doubt it would be that you never deserved me.
Not that year when we were together, and not now when you think all of your cheap words can make me desperate to be with you again.

I never thought stupidity could be a word that went against me, but i'll admit that I was stupid to ever believe the three words you said to me, May 2009, and even stupider to believe them now, when you tell me you're 'falling' for me all over again

If perhaps, suddenly, she's not perfect enough for you, and you're realising that just maybe you gave up on something better, then the answer is yes. You did give up on something better. But I guess that's just something you're going to have to accept.

You never, not once, made me feel special, or like I was the first thought when you woke up, and the last thing you though of because sleeping. But you know, one day, i'm going to meet a guy, and he's going to make me feel so special, and appreciate what you were quick to take for granted.

You made me feel second best then, but not now, not ever, will I be again, because i'm more than that. And if you haven't realised that now, then i'm sure you never will.

So, you can tell me that you're falling for me again. You can see me how pretty I look. You can even tell me that you think about nothing except for me, and that you regret giving up on us.

And if you're ever to read this blog, this is my reply . . .

I really don't care.
I don't buy it. Not a single word that comes out from your mouth. You manipulate women to feed your ego. And the funny thing is that you don't want me, you never did. You just want to know that I still want you. But the truth is, I got over you a l
ong, long time ago, and I realise now that I don't even need your approval when I change my hair, or wear a different lipstick because it was just a way of feeling as though, for once, I had the upperhand.

And above all, I don't need to hear your lies.

So I guess, i'm done.

- Epiphany;Angel Taylor.